"Follow your dreams and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls..."
4th grade. It was always 4th grade, or so I thought until this afternoon.
I realized something today that I had never allowed myself to fully think about. One that has always eaten at my mind but I pushed aside because I thought I wanted something different. I looked at what others had and thought they had everything I was sure at the time I wanted. These dreams had been mine since childhood. For as long as I remembered and I could not allow myself to think anything different. But now that I am allowing myself to engage in my new dream, I realized I have always wanted it. I shaped my whole life around it thinking I was loosing something big and never realizing I was gaining a whole lot more!
I am a mom. A very blessed mom who has the ability at the moment to stay at home with my children. Yes, I am living a frugal life, and I don't always get to grab that extra treat on the shelf, but I don't really feel like I am missing out. You see, because I am a stay at home mom I get to see things I would otherwise miss. Like, that goofy little smile your kid gives you when they feel they have done something awesome (or when they have done something extremely naughty😉) or that time you get to snuggle up on the couch with your kiddos for any reason you want. And yeah, I know I will still have tough days that I will be tempted to think of old dreams because truthfully I will have a 3 year old again and that year is always the year those dreams come back if ya know what I mean, lol. But I will never let this dream get trampled down again, because that what satan wants. He wants you to hold onto dreams that are good but that take you away from the dreams that are great.
And you know what else I realized today. That, because I am a stay at home mom I get to teach preschool and I LIKE it, actually I LOVE it! I never thought I would hear myself say that. But I love to see my sons growth in learning as long as 2 other little ones I get to teach. I NEVER thought that would be part of my new dream but it is, and I LOVE IT! I love being able to teach amazing curriculum that I get to choose myself. I love being my own boss doing what I think is best for these amazing kids. I love taking this curriculum and making it my own and teaching it the way these kids need, which is how this amazing curriculum is written. I love hearing stories about these kids growth at home and what they do at home because of something they learned in my home. That's pretty cool 😄.
So yeah, teaching rocks. I am so glad I had my first dream of teaching elementary because it led me to the dream I have now. I would have never known this new dream if it hadn't been for my previous dream, and following that dream, and now I am sure this new dream will lead me to other new dreams that I didn't consider before and that is exciting.
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